Warnings: non-con/rape, self harm, child abuse, childhood trauma
Characters: Clint, Natasha, Phil
Genres: angst, hurt/comfort | Smut: none
Word count: 8701 | Status: complete
She liked to hear her feet hitting the ground. The steady clap clap clap clap of her sneakers against the surface of the city streets felt like the world affirming that she was alive, alive, alive, alive. There was something about the loudness of it that comforted her. Even her own breathing couldn’t drown out her steps the way her breathing drowned out her heartbeat. When she left the Red Room, she hunkered in the basement of abandoned buildings in a derelict town in southern Spain where unemployment was rampant and it was easy enough to slip between the cracks of a warehouse, hide between druggies, learn to pick out the shape of sharps on the floor in the dark. She used to take her pulse then, time it on her wrist watch, reassure herself that her pulse was normal for a woman of her height, size, weight, and fitness level. Normality made her feel alive, then.My comment: It’s beautifully angsty with a well-deserved happy ending for our favourite pair of assassins. One of my all-time favourites.
It was not true what they said. There was no rooftop battle. She did not try and seduce Hawkeye. When she came to SHIELD, she was not whole. She was not the Black Widow. She had not been the Black Widow for a long time. It was a title she would earn back over years, long after she had chosen a new name, found herself again, learned to trust, and learned to love.
➳ Read more
buck--y reblogged this from wonderwcman custaaard-moving-blog liked this
horton-hears-a-doctor-who liked this
themostdangerouswomanintheverse liked this
eatsmurder liked this
temporarilyfixme liked this
asokatanos liked this 
bigcarwt liked this j-essiemueller liked this
isauraviolete reblogged this from wonderwcman
a-mischief-mannaged-star liked this
lil-miss-andyho liked this
potterlush liked this
sticks-solo liked this 
yookhe-i liked this wonderwcman posted this